I'm feeling very lonely. Not like I'm missing you or home or LFW or anything in specific, but m just feeling low. It could be very much mood swings due to my chums. Or that I'm not a part of India's biggest fashion event where I've worked like mad in the last 2 years or may be i'm suddenly thinking of my inglorious past full of wrong decisions. whatever the case may be I've come to realize that I'm basically an emotional fool. Do u think I'm an emotional fool who can coach 10000 lives for the better but screw her own self on the same mistakes? Woh! time to take control of myself. Time to think of my darling God who has put a lot of effort in making a unique piece like me.Forgive me Lord and I rebuke every time I think of something sinful.
Feeling Sad
Time for some real true emotions to come out of the closet... Though I know the world around me who know me, totally love and respect me...the kindda of working standards I have left behind is still talked about and compared with....if I go back to anyone whom I've met int the journey of life, i will be welcome with a bright smile but that doesn't submerge the dampness that is in my heart right now.
Even as I'm leafing through FB pages, I feel I've missed something. I could have still made it for LFW... my ego that grew beyond its regular size had compelled me to take such a harsh decission... I think its time to go underground and may be understand..do I really deserve what God has blessed me with?! Or am I still scared and would like to run away once again from the castle that I've created. NO Not this time....I have done enough mistakes in life...giving away relationships, not thinking about the future. No more!
Even as I look at Korak's messages I come back to the hope that I have...its very simple...someone out there loves you for whatever...maybe its not destined but still he loves you. Thank You God. I pray you would be with both of us in our careers and lives and keep us safe, especially fill our relationship with your spirit. Lord I trust you, I know there are things I'm not doing right and have failed you...but I still trust you coz I know you are there to be with me in spirit and in soul and will help me to come over my sins. Thank You God!
Who Saath Din Part III:
15th to 21st August, 2010
The sweetness of love was spreading its fragrance…the last few days together were counting themselves…
When I sat to write the last phase of this blog tale, I was surprised! I cannot give this love story an ending. I’m not going to write what I thought.
No re..I cannot decide Vaibhabhi and Rishab’s fate. Deep inside my heart my heart I want this craziness of the characters to continue. They should go on till God has other extremely different plans. Very impractical but I want this to be a ‘Once upon a time…and they lived happily ever after’ fairytale.
As I sit here, enjoying with my mom the English melodies of 50’s and 60’s, I get more and more carried away with Cliff Richards, Andy Williams, Vanity Fair, Trini Lopez and more in their romantic escapes. In this not so perfect world let’s create a perfect imagery atleast on paper.
So dear reader, sorry to disappoint you but take this chance and share your thoughts with Vaib and Rish, as they continue their quest of love…a simple attraction, a commitment for a lifetime, a promising moral security, biological reaction or just another overrated word in the dictionary of today’s world.
I leave you with some of the lyrics of a famous English romantic number ‘Dream’…Enjoy and May God Bless Your Love-Story J
I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine Anytime night or day Only trouble is, gee whiz I'm dreamin' my life away I need you so that I could die I love you so and that is why Whenever I want you, all I have to do is Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam
The sweetness of love was spreading its fragrance…the last few days together were counting themselves…
When I sat to write the last phase of this blog tale, I was surprised! I cannot give this love story an ending. I’m not going to write what I thought.
No re..I cannot decide Vaibhabhi and Rishab’s fate. Deep inside my heart my heart I want this craziness of the characters to continue. They should go on till God has other extremely different plans. Very impractical but I want this to be a ‘Once upon a time…and they lived happily ever after’ fairytale.
As I sit here, enjoying with my mom the English melodies of 50’s and 60’s, I get more and more carried away with Cliff Richards, Andy Williams, Vanity Fair, Trini Lopez and more in their romantic escapes. In this not so perfect world let’s create a perfect imagery atleast on paper.
So dear reader, sorry to disappoint you but take this chance and share your thoughts with Vaib and Rish, as they continue their quest of love…a simple attraction, a commitment for a lifetime, a promising moral security, biological reaction or just another overrated word in the dictionary of today’s world.
I leave you with some of the lyrics of a famous English romantic number ‘Dream’…Enjoy and May God Bless Your Love-Story J
I can make you mine, taste your lips of wine Anytime night or day Only trouble is, gee whiz I'm dreamin' my life away I need you so that I could die I love you so and that is why Whenever I want you, all I have to do is Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam, dream, dream, dream Drea-ea-ea-ea-eam
Woh Saath Din: Part II
8th Sunday:
Peelu Tere Nile Nile Hooto Se Shabnam…Peelu tere bheege bheege akho se sagar... Vaishnavi was listening to music loudly when her brother comes to the room and screams out of irritation, “ What’s with you?! Ever since you have come you have been listening to the same song over and over again and busy messaging God knows who! Please get ready. Your bhabhi is waiting; we are going to a new restaurant in old Ahmedabad.”
“Oh my loving Bhaiya…smile…I’ve got a bad cold on the journey and feeling weak. Please go ahead, enjoy yourselves. I promise to tour the city with you tomorrow”, Vaibhavi pecked her brother with a charming smile.
9th Monday:
GTALK Conversation
Rish: Suddenly missing you a lot L
Vaib: Me too L OMG! This is going to be so difficult!
Rish: Motu chill…don’t stress
Vaib:Motu L
Rish: Lst nght sw 2 grls @ d party who luk lke u
Vaib: Haha…you never know may be it was me ;)
Rish: so wish it ws u :D
Vaib: Muah …muah…muah…muah for your right eye, muah for your left and muah for your tattooed tiger…keep the love for you
Rish: don pamper me so much that I miss u whn m flying
Vaib: ;p jus close your eyes and think about me and you feel me present next to you
Rish: Stupid..thts worse! Thn wil miss u mre and fl sad tht u r nt thr
10th Tuesday:
9:00 AM Tring tring (phone rings) hey luv, …I’m coming today…pick me at the airport!
6:00 PM Beep beep (msg) –Welcome to Delhi. Ur pik up s waitin @ d gate :D hpe ur stay in the capital is pleasurable . luv ur lazy bum
Vaib wanted to believe it’s a no-expectation relationship but she went blank when he came to drop her home. Rish hugged her tight to say bye as she was about to step out. At that very moment she knew… it’s a new beginning and there is no looking back.
11th, 12th, 13th, 14th
In between movies, lunches, open terrace and closed room hugs and kisses, everyday was a new feeling…a new promise. Unlimited messages and long duration phone calls were their daily dose of romantic drama. The affair bloomed like how any new lovey-dovey couple.
But the ‘taste’ and ‘test’ of time awaits!
Is Rishab serious about Vaibhavi? Will Vaibhavi continue to feel it’s just another affair? Will they keep in touch and take this forward even when Rishab goes back on-air?
Don’t miss Who Saath Din Part III
Peelu Tere Nile Nile Hooto Se Shabnam…Peelu tere bheege bheege akho se sagar... Vaishnavi was listening to music loudly when her brother comes to the room and screams out of irritation, “ What’s with you?! Ever since you have come you have been listening to the same song over and over again and busy messaging God knows who! Please get ready. Your bhabhi is waiting; we are going to a new restaurant in old Ahmedabad.”
“Oh my loving Bhaiya…smile…I’ve got a bad cold on the journey and feeling weak. Please go ahead, enjoy yourselves. I promise to tour the city with you tomorrow”, Vaibhavi pecked her brother with a charming smile.
9th Monday:
GTALK Conversation
Rish: Suddenly missing you a lot L
Vaib: Me too L OMG! This is going to be so difficult!
Rish: Motu chill…don’t stress
Vaib:Motu L
Rish: Lst nght sw 2 grls @ d party who luk lke u
Vaib: Haha…you never know may be it was me ;)
Rish: so wish it ws u :D
Vaib: Muah …muah…muah…muah for your right eye, muah for your left and muah for your tattooed tiger…keep the love for you
Rish: don pamper me so much that I miss u whn m flying
Vaib: ;p jus close your eyes and think about me and you feel me present next to you
Rish: Stupid..thts worse! Thn wil miss u mre and fl sad tht u r nt thr
10th Tuesday:
9:00 AM Tring tring (phone rings) hey luv, …I’m coming today…pick me at the airport!
6:00 PM Beep beep (msg) –Welcome to Delhi. Ur pik up s waitin @ d gate :D hpe ur stay in the capital is pleasurable . luv ur lazy bum
Vaib wanted to believe it’s a no-expectation relationship but she went blank when he came to drop her home. Rish hugged her tight to say bye as she was about to step out. At that very moment she knew… it’s a new beginning and there is no looking back.
11th, 12th, 13th, 14th
In between movies, lunches, open terrace and closed room hugs and kisses, everyday was a new feeling…a new promise. Unlimited messages and long duration phone calls were their daily dose of romantic drama. The affair bloomed like how any new lovey-dovey couple.
But the ‘taste’ and ‘test’ of time awaits!
Is Rishab serious about Vaibhavi? Will Vaibhavi continue to feel it’s just another affair? Will they keep in touch and take this forward even when Rishab goes back on-air?
Don’t miss Who Saath Din Part III
Woh Saath Din: Part I
August 01, 2010 02:00pm – After partying for two consecutive nights, Vaibhavi was exhausted. She was too tired to travel to the other part of Mumbai to meet her friend. She instead invited Rishab to her apartment and thought they will plan their next couple of days over a drink. What happened next is what this blog tale is all about!
Aug’02, 2010 02:00am – “Omg! I don’t think we should do this”, Vaibs pushed herself away from Rish in her intoxication. Rishab agreed, “we are complicating things …we should stop, we are friends.” The damage was already done, Vaibhavi and Rishab did not realise when they locked their lips, that their emotions have got attached in the most unexpected fashion.
Aug’03, 2010 06:00pm – Rishab had a flight to catch the day after; he was getting ready for a friends place when Vaibhavi in her agitation asked, “Can’t you stay for any longer?”
Aug’04, 2010 10:00am – (Phone rings) Tring tring “Hello Vaibhavi, Rishab here!”…” I’m coming over to your place; my flight has been postponed to 7th August…what’s for lunch?”
Aug’05, 2010 – Kakori biryani was amazing, the kebabs melted away. Tere bin laden at PVR was a waste of time. But they never cared as they sat on marine drive experiencing every lashing wave together, welcoming it with Vaibhavi’s joyous voice and Rishab’s uncanny thoughts.
Aug’06, 2010 – Vaibs was already into Rish, though she knew he was not here to stay. She wanted to hold him tight once more and tell him that these few days of nothings meant more to her than a lot of somethings. She wanted to leave it open for him to decide. She wanted to run away but the farthest she could reach was her best friend’s house for dinner, that too along with him.
Aug’07, 2010 10.30am – The day was here. He was about to leave in 15mins. He was calm promising both it would go a long way. Vaibs did not know what to expect. She was exhilarated and disappointed at the same time. She moved closer to him. His breath increased manifold. The euphoric chaos was felt around as they united into each other for a moment and the void was filled with inexplicable ecstasy!
Aug’02, 2010 02:00am – “Omg! I don’t think we should do this”, Vaibs pushed herself away from Rish in her intoxication. Rishab agreed, “we are complicating things …we should stop, we are friends.” The damage was already done, Vaibhavi and Rishab did not realise when they locked their lips, that their emotions have got attached in the most unexpected fashion.
Aug’03, 2010 06:00pm – Rishab had a flight to catch the day after; he was getting ready for a friends place when Vaibhavi in her agitation asked, “Can’t you stay for any longer?”
Aug’04, 2010 10:00am – (Phone rings) Tring tring “Hello Vaibhavi, Rishab here!”…” I’m coming over to your place; my flight has been postponed to 7th August…what’s for lunch?”
Aug’05, 2010 – Kakori biryani was amazing, the kebabs melted away. Tere bin laden at PVR was a waste of time. But they never cared as they sat on marine drive experiencing every lashing wave together, welcoming it with Vaibhavi’s joyous voice and Rishab’s uncanny thoughts.
Aug’06, 2010 – Vaibs was already into Rish, though she knew he was not here to stay. She wanted to hold him tight once more and tell him that these few days of nothings meant more to her than a lot of somethings. She wanted to leave it open for him to decide. She wanted to run away but the farthest she could reach was her best friend’s house for dinner, that too along with him.
Aug’07, 2010 10.30am – The day was here. He was about to leave in 15mins. He was calm promising both it would go a long way. Vaibs did not know what to expect. She was exhilarated and disappointed at the same time. She moved closer to him. His breath increased manifold. The euphoric chaos was felt around as they united into each other for a moment and the void was filled with inexplicable ecstasy!
Missin Him
11:18pm-August 28, 2010
It’s not been 48 hours since he has been unreachable and I’m trying to control my emotions…ironically which includes my already “had discussions” with Romi and Souvit on how much I’m missing him. They think I’m over reacting. Well I’m …considering the number of sms’s I have sent knowing there would be continuous delivery failure and calls which are being registered to his activated missed call alerts (I think!).
Its just hard, that’s all! But then come to be in terms with practical life, you realize you are indeed overreacting….but then you have the longing that he will dock, call and tell you how much he also missed you. Is this love, infatuation, crush or just a mere gap in between one’s heart, mind and soul being filled by expectations, with happiness at the end or disappointment as the story goes on? Lets not predict…I’m here, move on …get used to it… life has greater or worse things in store…Live it and continue making a difference …but that doesn’t iron out the fact that I do miss him. So here’s to the weird feeling inside my heart. Cheers!
It’s not been 48 hours since he has been unreachable and I’m trying to control my emotions…ironically which includes my already “had discussions” with Romi and Souvit on how much I’m missing him. They think I’m over reacting. Well I’m …considering the number of sms’s I have sent knowing there would be continuous delivery failure and calls which are being registered to his activated missed call alerts (I think!).
Its just hard, that’s all! But then come to be in terms with practical life, you realize you are indeed overreacting….but then you have the longing that he will dock, call and tell you how much he also missed you. Is this love, infatuation, crush or just a mere gap in between one’s heart, mind and soul being filled by expectations, with happiness at the end or disappointment as the story goes on? Lets not predict…I’m here, move on …get used to it… life has greater or worse things in store…Live it and continue making a difference …but that doesn’t iron out the fact that I do miss him. So here’s to the weird feeling inside my heart. Cheers!
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