March 15, 2008

1:04:16 PMI

I Love Life!

I love my life. I simply love my life. Even in the middle of the stupid daily cribbing which I know is useless and is mostly ignored I still love my life. I love myself and my life even though I don’t have a boy friend to speak to every night. I love my life even though I don’t have a fat package salary. I love my life even though I live in a room with a mate which is the size of my bathroom compared to my own house in Howrah. Still I love my life! I simply love my life!

Then I ask myself….suddenly why such a drastic realization??!!.... Hmmm! Let see… In a bookstore you have thousand and one books talking about winning in life, looking at things positively, feng shui for betterment etc etc etc….nah! I don read such books. Is it counseling of people and their precious time invested in my better living??!!....hahaha..if I start doing things listening to other people’s advice phir toh ho gaya. Then what?! What is this brightness in my eyes??? Where are all these colors sparkling from??? God knows!!!...and I mean it..God only knows… He has made the blueprint of my life…. I leave it to Him … I know He’ll take care of me. In the meantime, I can always describe my thoughts about why I find my life to be so beautiful.

Every one knows about the ruckus I had created in my life by not completing my graduation in college. There was a time I thought I’m a loser and everything is over. But here I’m writing this about how content I’m with my life. I’ve a job which allows me to socialize with the creme d’la creme of the Mumbai city which includes business tycoons to bollywood stars to fashion icons to politicians, the who’s who of the town. At the end of the day when I come back to the hostel I eat with girls for whom Rs.10 for the auto to the station makes a huge difference. That’s called two extremes. I love my life cause I get to be part of all forms of existence in the society, both the extremes and also a lot in the middle. I love talking to the mami who comes to wash my clothes. A simple gift like a little used bag also is accepted by her with love and courteousness. Her sweetness makes me love my life.

I love my life cause I get to stand and smoke with people who write reviews of movies and gossips that makes famous people famous! I love my life cause I’m with people who’s one small decision can make or break other people’s dreams. I love my life cause I’ve friends who animate the world into the small idiot box. I love my life cause I get into the nitty grities of everything from religion to fashion to books to traveling. I love my life cause I’ve dated different people. I love my life cause I can carry off any kind of clothes. I love my life cause someone came to me and said I’m the only person she appreciates in the hostel. I love my life cause I can make people smile.

I love my life simply because I’ve variety. I’m the Jill of all trades trying to master it. That all!... I LOVE MY LIFE J

Purpose

March 1, 2008 : 9:22:56 PM

Purpose

Its been a really long time, I’ve not scribbled anything and circulated. After Minaxi left Shoot Talent it was a bit of stressful but then the best way out is to just accept and go with the flow. Yes I’m very much going with the flow but in the mean time losing my purpose in life. I’m sure each one of us must have thought about it at some point of time. Most of the people find me too philosophical, someone who is curious to find the unanswered question, and think I loose track of practical life in the bargain. But I ask you what is practical life and REALITY? Is reality waking up every morning going to work and back because it gives us our daily bread?! Is it about parties, friends, drinks and movies to have fun and be in the ‘gang’?! Or is it about feeling free?! Incase you have seen the movie MATRIX we humans are in a virtual world with something in our mind which makes us believe what we want to believe. Even the book called The Secret talks about visualizing what you want to make happen. With due respect to all the people who think they know what it is all about…. I’m not convinced. There are a lot of things in the world beyond scientific n psychological explanations which people cover up with stories of religion or unreligious threats. But who decides no one knows. You believe cause it is been coming down for ages. And then of course you have the sense n sensibility to revolt and hang mid-way which again pulls apart the whole purpose. What is this purpose? Something greater than what we think we know or want! Find it or as they say in today’s world ‘who cares’!