When you are weary from the fight, trying to do whats right, you need times of refreshing of the soul....and here is my way ....write a blog on it!
PD
- Payal Dass
- Mumbai, Maharashtra, India
- The blogs here describe me the best! So just read on to know me in depth ;)
U , Me Aur Hum Sab!
Imagine if you had a loved one who one day develops an incurable disease like Alzheimer (I pray, God forbid such a situation though!)……what do you do?! ‘U, Me Aur Hum’, the movie, revolves around a similar plot where finally Ajay Mehra decides to live with his love, his wife, under the same roof no matter what the consequences are. And they lived happily ever after….with or without remembering it! But the moral of the story is tied up on a parallel plot where two of his friends neither had great love lives. One’s girlfriend doesn’t want to commit while the other is busy quarrelling through out with his wife. These are the lives we can relate to and may be the story of Ajay Mehra is something we would never wish for. Then why aren’t we happy with what we have. That’s the moral…. We have what we can handle, we need to handle it with care.....there are worse things that can happen in life.
My life doesn’t have a so-called special love but I don’t want to loose what I have. I have the love of my wonderful friends and family. Today I was with one such group of friends - Niti, Vidhi, Vanya, Nicole, Sweeta, Amrita, Roop, Shipra – one of my hostel gang with whom I went for U, Me Aur Hum and later for a sumptuous dinner at Lamba . Even though I have nothing common with these girls they are the ones I‘ve found my family in. These are the girls who make my day – Niti’s innocence, Vidhi’s love, Nicole’s intellect, Vanya’s spark, Sweeta’s calmness, Amruta’s weirdness, Roops bachpana and Shipra’s silence, each has their own influence in me.2 years down the line probably we wont even be in touch but these sudden trips will always be there forever.
So here I go one step ahead….. Dear Future, here I come to the land of unknown I know you have what I can handle…. Thank you for what you have given me till now.Love PD
March 15, 2008
1:04:16 PMI
I Love Life!
Then I ask myself….suddenly why such a drastic realization??!!.... Hmmm! Let see… In a bookstore you have thousand and one books talking about winning in life, looking at things positively, feng shui for betterment etc etc etc….nah! I don read such books. Is it counseling of people and their precious time invested in my better living??!!....hahaha..if I start doing things listening to other people’s advice phir toh ho
I love my life cause I get to stand and smoke with people who write reviews of movies and gossips that makes famous people famous! I love my life cause I’m with people who’s one small decision can make or break other people’s dreams. I love my life cause I’ve friends who animate the world into the small idiot box. I love my life cause I get into the nitty grities of everything from religion to fashion to books to traveling. I love my life cause I’ve dated different people. I love my life cause I can carry off any kind of clothes. I love my life cause someone came to me and said I’m the only person she appreciates in the hostel. I love my life cause I can make people smile.
Purpose
March 1, 2008 : 9:22:56 PM
Purpose
Its been a really long time, I’ve not scribbled anything and circulated. After Minaxi left Shoot Talent it was a bit of stressful but then the best way out is to just accept and go with the flow. Yes I’m very much going with the flow but in the mean time losing my purpose in life. I’m sure each one of us must have thought about it at some point of time. Most of the people find me too philosophical, someone who is curious to find the unanswered question, and think I loose track of practical life in the bargain. But I ask you what is practical life and REALITY? Is reality waking up every morning going to work and back because it gives us our daily bread?! Is it about parties, friends, drinks and movies to have fun and be in the ‘gang’?! Or is it about feeling free?! Incase you have seen the movie MATRIX we humans are in a virtual world with something in our mind which makes us believe what we want to believe. Even the book called The Secret talks about visualizing what you want to make happen. With due respect to all the people who think they know what it is all about…. I’m not convinced. There are a lot of things in the world beyond scientific n psychological explanations which people cover up with stories of religion or unreligious threats. But who decides no one knows. You believe cause it is been coming down for ages. And then of course you have the sense n sensibility to revolt and hang mid-way which again pulls apart the whole purpose. What is this purpose? Something greater than what we think we know or want! Find it or as they say in today’s world ‘who cares’!
1year 8months
Hey do you believe this….it was just last year that I came to this city attracted by a so called glamorous job at Shoot Talent Management, The TIMES GROUP. I packed my bags, said a small but desperate prayer, and there I was on my way on the broad Pune-Mumbai express highway.
2nd April'06….that's the D-Day, Lord made my way into 7 Ramesh Niwas and a part of the two most unusually wonderful people on Planet Earth. It might sound a little exaggerated but Dipti and Sabir were only ones who opened their doors or perhaps their hearts for me to come and reside. More than 30 days no question asked my fairy God mother & father not only made their living room into 'room to live' for me but also showed me whole of South Mumbai. Their friends became my friends. I became the hostess of their parties. This is what I called love, making a stranger turn into a daughter.
Right at this moment 12/8/2007 9:15:23 PM I'm sitting on their bed and writing this on Dipti's laptop.
Life has not really been the same ever since.
Then you meet graceful people like Padma, Ruby and Anubhuti who show you a new way of looking at life. Being selfless and living for God and the world’s sufferings. There is an unusual peace and happiness in it. I’ve started treading on the same path atleast have taken the first few baby steps. Doing the simplest thing like giving a listening ear to other people’s problems or buying the beggar kid a toffee makes such a lot of difference to your soul.
And finally SHOOT TALENT MANAGEMENT…… a job of a manager, scheduler, sales person ….whatever you would like to call it. There again like any other job it has its own share of frustrations, lies, hang-ups and competition. The difference: you get to attend social page 3 parties and mix around with the elite class…..for me it’s all fake and materialistic so never really enjoyed it.
This is December’07. It’s been over 1 year 8 months. I love this city, the people around me, taffic jams, the zest to live life that this city showers……the Mumbai-Pune journeys once in 2 months, the whole night daru n dance, the Sunday church services….the smiles in the beggar kid’s face, the pollution, the competition, the the the everything…………….. Let every year bring a new surprise, a new experience and new faces to look at. Mumbai apunka Mumbai.
Jus a thought
Date : 12/2/2007 1:33:28 PM
Today while having lunch at the hostel canteen suddenly I was taken down memory lane. Exactly a year back I used to eat lunch with some other friends in the same place, few of who are married now while others have either found new cities or friends. Strange, very strange! People come in and go out of life. Some strongly get attached as if life would be empty without them but then if they are not there life still goes on. Then there are others who come for a very short period but leave a huge footprint behind. And life is never ever the same again. These are all part of the process called ‘LIFE’.
Then there are those moments with friends, lover, family, personal and so on which you can never forget. Tear glands become active every time the brain cells are trying to recollect those far away impulses. You don’t know which emotion pops-up from no where and when. Also how can we forget about the soul searching that’s the everyday agenda at the end of the day. Trust me its not just you and me…everyone has the same story…just that some life graphs have extreme peaks while others have more or less constant flow. But whatever it is….. It’s LIFE and it follows its own way.
In the Bible, Jermiah 29:11 says “The Lord has a plan and purpose for you. Plan to prosper you and not to harm you”. Don’t you think its true…. Jus't take a minute and think are we actually lost or is it a habitual banter to crib and cry about the silly things of life. If u reading this at least you had the priviledge to go to school, read n write and have the opportunity to log on to science’s globalizing creation ‘internet’………there millions out there who cannot do that.Just a thought…….
Have a wonderful life…..may all your wishes n dreams come true.
PD