Just Wanted To Write my Blog

As the title goes, I just wanted to write my blog even though am dead tired and ready to fall. People change as their circumstances change and am setting no different example. Ever since I have taken up this new job, I'm fully worked up and I mean it. More than 12 hours a day am at my office trying hard to meet my client's expectations. Well I don't know how much that matters anyway but still work is work, thats what I'm about. Ok so getting back to point of changes in life, this job occupies most my living hours. I hardly bother to keep in touch with people or for that matter even speak to my closest buddies. Some close friends have suddenly shared their feedback with me that I'm rude. Well may be at times I'm. I do need to take out my frustrations man and what better than to share it with closest friends. But I guess I'm somehow destined to be lonely all my life cause in the middle of so many friends that God has blessed me with I somehow am still searching. Very honestly I've stopped searching and actutually started living my life like a typical single girl in a big ciy. my life has changed and I do not regret because I beleive I have alot to learn and step by step I'll go ahead. Until next time when I just feel like blogging......Adios

Truth is nothing but the truth

Since the past few days I’ve been trying to write on my blog but never got the time. Even as m writing now my eyes are dreamy and the bed is craving to be slept on. I’ve been working day and night since the past few days for the press con and party of LFW ... oops! There you go the same mistake that has taken my peace of mind. I made the mistake of over promising my client...or lets put it in a honest fashion .... I lied to my client saying that i’ve pitched the media that the party was a Lakme & IMG party instead of an LFW party....but what happens next is why I’m so tensed or may be not is that tomorrow might be a doomsday. I believe God had been hinting me for quite sometime that I need to stop doing a lot of things that I ve been doing and may be somewhere call it a stress mode or whatever I’ve have lost the basics of what God’s has taught me. I ve started lieing immesnselyand doing things which are not to be done the way it is done. I don’t know where, what, when, how will my life unfold next. All I know is I need to go to office tomorrow and face whatever is in store for me....but whatever it is just be true.....to myself.

Soul Searching.....

The title of the blog might make you think this is another one of mine high philosophy crap where I'm trying to find where my life is leading to. Interestingly enough its not :)....this is more like...where I continue to praise my dear God for showing me the world and its wonders and strange mixture of everything......Dear God, All I want to say is I love you!!! Muah

Sudden Change

Call it sudden...or planned by the eternal forces, my life has drastically changed. I remember I wrote in one of my previous blogs that "its life's calling"....well life is calling for me. Things I would never do personally, my job requires. Even filling my own bottle of water. Life is not easy and God has his way of teaching me. I am amazed at myself...wearing formal clothes, getting up early, trying to think practically.... what more do you want from a person who had been in denim and tees running around carelessly all her life?!
Lord I love you for the changes you have brought about. I know you have a reason and I respect it....... but as saying goes Kay Sara Sara....Halleuah!

My Last Write Up to STM

Once upon a time there lived a girl in a town named Howrah,West Bengal, who dreamt of being in the Filmfare awards……. 22 years later her dream came true and that too as a MIP guest. She was chaperoning the Miss India’06 batch and it was one of the events they had to be a part of. At that point of time she was not aware that the people behind this event would become her buddies in a year’s time. And the guests who she was looking at for the first time out of the silver screen would become her daily dose of genuine gossip and the faces she would bump into every now and then.
Yes things changed for her on the 22nd March when she was interviewed by Shaheen n Raj in the tiny Indiatimes chat room. I still remember how street smart I had been to take a train from Santracruz to Churchgate and then a cab to the TOI, VT building. It was the 1st time when I smelt the polluted air of Mumbai like millions out there entering into this big, bad city of dreams. Somehow I just knew this is my home and I will get the job at Shoot Talent Management. I knew nothing else …I knew no one….all I did was picked up my Footloose red bag with minimal clothes and hit the roads of Mumbai on 2nd April and was welcomed by 2 most wonderful people on Planet Earth – Dipti & Sabir.
It’s been over 2 years now. Everyday when I cross the Empire Mills on my way to office I remember the day I told my friend, ‘how funny is this place, with all offices in the name of mills and compounds!!’. God immediately thought of playing the most humorous prank…lets get this girl here!! Zoom was not my office but it was where we sat and continued until we realized it was more a part of us compared to many other Zoom employees. Hence we had a huge issue and heart break when we had to move to Times tower.
Sometimes its fun when you sit back and think what all you have conquered in your recent past. Ila laughing at my stupid comments, Raj listening to my drab lovelife, Tapan giving in at my ‘point’, Sonia confused at my confusion, Shirin & Poorvi’s similar cries for the irritating models, Anjana’s 10 000 queries…. I believe we all had our share of personal bonding along with the 24/7 mobiles ringing with stress and personal space scattered everywhere.
In the midst of my professionalism, I’ve goofed up many times, got blasted and saved even more times, lost my cool, have abused and bitched, even once got drunk and puked…..but I have learnt a very big lesson…. “No matter what, Life goes on!!!” There were people and emotions that came in and out during these 2 years but nothing really stopped. Even if it did it’s was momentary. Keeping all such moments saved in my memory, I bid thee farewell…. Life has to go on!!!
Take care ……if destined will meet again
Big HUG and a broad SMILE (payal style)
Payal Dass
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